“The Spiritual Momma
You Never Knew
You Always Wanted”
Meet Rita
If you had asked me in my 20’s if I’d had a happy childhood and if I was happily married, I would’ve told you, “Yes,” (and I would’ve even believed it myself).
Then my identical twin daughters were born 15 weeks premature, my daughter Amy died in my arms at 9 days old, and the entire illusion that was my life exploded right before my eyes. Amy reset my Richter Scale. She showed me what mattered, and what didn’t (and it wasn’t always what I thought it should be).
After she died, it wasn’t that I was suddenly a completely different person.
It was that I could no longer sustainably lie to myself in the same ways I’d done before.
I couldn’t only see the happy childhood I’d told myself I’d lived. I also had to acknowledge that I’d been raised by a raging asshole and a mother who enabled him and that my brother sexually abused me once, but I was never allowed to talk about it again.
I couldn’t only claim I was happily married. I had to see all the ways he wasn’t supportive, all the ways he didn’t really want to be with me, and all the ways I used him to feel bad (because I didn’t know I didn’t think I deserved any better).
Amy’s life—and her death—were two of the greatest gifts I’ve ever been given.
Because she led me to doing my work. And doing my work gave me MY life. Not the life my parents thought I should live, not the life society expected of me, not the life my kids or spouse wanted from me, but a life that was fully and completely mine.
That’s the gift of pain: it cuts you off at the knees, but it can also open you up to a whole new experience of yourself—if you let it.
When you do your work to heal the past, EVERYTHING in your life changes in ways you can’t even imagine right now. That’s what I found when I did my work and it’s what I’ve helped thousands of people experience for themselves too.
You just have to be courageous enough to stop running from the pain and start using it to heal.
In the decades following Amy’s death, I lost my mind
“If my mom can do her work, anyone can.”
Years into doing my work, I was getting a massage when something unleashed inside me.
A surge of energy erupted from the base of my spine all the way up to the top of my head. It felt like my head exploded.
I started to sob. And sob. And sob. And sob.
For hours I cried, feeling completely unmoored, destroyed, consumed by a crushing fear that I was going to cease to exist. I wasn’t afraid of dying because I’d faced my daughter Amy’s death, but I was terrified that I was going to be obliterated.
Eventually, in my mind’s eye, I saw a door and knew I needed to walk through it to move beyond this terror.
When I finally did, on the other side was space. Calm. Peace. An inner knowing that everything was going to be ok. My thoughts quieted. I wasn’t motivated by the fears that had tormented me even five hours earlier.
Who I was before no longer existed, but I had no idea what had happened.
Months later, my friend and mentor Jonathan Parker told me I’d experienced a Kundalini Awakening. It was a shift in consciousness, a shedding of fears I hadn’t even known were there.
It created a pathway into what’s called The Emptiness (or God, Love, Presence, the Divine, Pure Consciousness, Qi, Prana it doesn’t matter what you call it).
In The Emptiness you expand into nothingness—which is everything all at once. It’s a place of complete and total surrender. You let go of who you think you are, of the stories you don’t know you’re telling yourself, of the beliefs, judgments, and limitations you’ve been carrying for lifetimes.
There are no thoughts, just pure stillness, pure presence. It’s being enveloped in pure Love.
Through doing my work, it’s where I live all the time. From The Emptiness, I support you in letting go of everything that’s not real, of the fears keeping you from experiencing, tasting, touching the Light, Love, and Truth of who you are quicker, sooner, faster. I bring The Emptiness into the pain and suffering and help you fully connect with the Highest Enlightened Awareness of your Soul (the part of you who knows your magnificence).
People don’t know they don’t have to live with thoughts, but they don’t.
Whether you’re bombarded with anxious reminders to turn off the stove, guilty feelings for how you acted in the past, or the constant mind chatter telling you you’ll never be good enough, you don’t have to live with it. It’s not the Truth of who you are.
All of that is just showing you what’s coming up for you to heal.
When you dig into those stuck places, when you’re courageous enough to walk through the door, you come out the other side completely transformed.
You just have to be willing to (metaphorically) die unto the versions of you that no longer serve you first. It’s not about physically dying. It’s about being willing to cease to exist as you know yourself to be.
“Miracles are possible when you’re with Rita.”
“Over the years, Rita’s taught me to trust my inner knowing, thrown hard but important Truths my way, and has always held me in Love. She’s saved me many times.”
What people say about working with me
“Half the time I don’t even know what Rita’s helping me process, I just know on the other side, I feel better, my relationships improve, and I no longer get upset about things I used to really care about. It’s been a wild ride doing my work, but I’m so grateful I’m doing it!”“This work has not just changed my life but continues changing my life for the better with each step forward….the baby steps and the leaps both.”“Doing this work can provide you with healing beyond your imagination. I too have been in therapy for a very long time. It helped, but it wasn’t until I started this journey that I truly started to heal at a core level. It has taken many glamorous hours with breath work, but so worth it.”“Doing my work is absolutely changing my life for the better. I’m standing up for myself in all my relationships, doing less shit I never wanted to do in the first place, feeling WAY less fear and anxiety than ever before, and am having more fun no matter what’s going on. And the people in my life are starting to notice. Our conversations are more honest. I’m way less triggered. And I’m able to show up more present and loving to everyone.”“If it wasn't for doing my work with Rita, I'd still be a miserable asshole.”“A day after our session, I woke up feeling very different. The energetic shift was palpable. Like I truly had shed the heaviness and was ready for something new. It made zero logical sense that I would have felt so different so quickly….and with no conscious awareness of the shift!”“Before starting this work, I was in a committed relationship with anxiety and self-doubt. I had no capacity to see or believe that there could be any other way—as this was my built-in way of coping and walking through the world. Now, I’m walking through life with a deep connection to peace. I am practicing self-love and self-care, and I love my life more than I ever dreamed possible.”“Rita isn't cheap, but believe me, she'll save you so much money.”“Working with Rita has given me a whole new level of emotional and mental freedom. I have way more self love and self confidence than I’ve ever had. I didn’t even know it was possible to feel this good. Doing this work is one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.”